having to look for something to do this christmas vacation must be the most tiring thing to so... especially if you haven't got the dough. oh well.... so whats the other thing to do aside from haunting coffee shop and smoke with all your glory of marlboro? well... drown in the chatting world and this has been one of my downfalls...

so... there is this two guy... lets call the first one old timer because ive been talking to him for as long as i remember. he's witty, he's brilliant with great sarcastic humor but i havent seen him. the other one would be... hottie... coz boy!!! is he hot!!! and im not joking!!! i could imagine him as Aries (god of war) for he is just so gorgeous!!!! he got this fabulous textured corn silk colored hair, goatee beautiful eyes and great body (he's italian by the way, living somewhere in the pacific). so i got overwhelmed. i admit it i was sooo overcomed with facination and fantazies (i admit it... great looking guys has been my weakness). but after sometime, after all the facination and stuff i began to get really annoyed because he was "nearly" demanding me to be on-line whenever he is.... like... haller!!!! then.... I love yous came.... haller again!!! its got so damned annoying already... why is his i love yous annoying? one: its not true. two: guys that has those looks dont fall for the likes of me in the real life... WE ARE NOT IN FAIRY TALE!!!! three: haller!!!!!

but gradually... i become to get facinated with old timer. there are days that i really really would like to get on-line just to see if he's on. Look at my phone if he got a message and get crestfallen when he's not. i began to talk about him 24/7 to kitchie that kitchie's ear is about to fall off. i'd talk about what we've talked about.... quoted what he said. so when kitchie couldn't take it anymore she unceremoniusly told me: " you've fallen for him.... am i right?" after thinking about it... pathetically... she might be right.