i dont know if its soooo bad if i get so distant to alot of people? i know... its so difficult. i was once so close to this person that its just a matter of seconds before i faint and die if we wouldnt have any communication in every hour of the day. i dont know whats wrong with me... the other day when we were out, and i dont know what i felt... i felt sooo fucking irritated with her. with everything she says and the bad thing is... i dont want to tell that to her because i have no other explanation about it... im soooo fuckin sorry about it. right now im getting irritated again with her because... i kept on remebering how she teasing me for being chinese and looking like one. its sooo bad. i dont even want to tell her that its making me fucking mad. its soooo fucking horrible